After winter, people starts to clean their houses, get rid of the cloths or stuff that they don’t need anymore. Windows are open to let the new fresh spring breeze to enter the house and replace the cold humid one. Fasting is my “Spring cleaning” of my body, mind and soul. Every year, I feel how my soul is elevated, how’s my body is taking a rest during the day and start focusing in cleaning itself. My mind become more clear, my energy level increase specially my mental power. This is year I wanted to add another layer on top of that, I wanted to try yoga while I am fasting. I doubted myself how far I can go, I was expecting myself after the fist class to stop and take break until I finish the month because I will not be able to do it. However, I had completely different experience! It added to my peace of mind, it helps me to recognized my body more and pushed its boundaries. After every class, I came back home, I don’t feel like doing anything, just breaking my fast, and enjoy the peaceful moment inside my head and my body. Yoga gave my fasting a boost, it is like the finial touches to my body and my mind. Now the equation is completed and both side of it is on balance: Mind + Soul + Body = Me!
Everyday we resisting and fighting, our muscles are tense all the time to pull ourselves away. We are not giving up or surrender to it. The only time that we giving up to it while we are sleeping because we are not in control anymore.
Gravity keeps pulling us down but we resist that all the time. With my new yoga experience, when my teacher says “Surrender to gravity”‘; it was difficult at the beginning to do so. My mind trick me, for a moment it give me the feeling that all my muscles surrendered but I found my face muscles are not yet. My mind is not easily giving up, even if it plays trick on his owner. I had to force my mind to let go, to surrender, and experience the feelings of having my muscles melted down from my bones. The feeling for losing the awareness of your body parts. The feeling that your soul or mind is not limited to this physical body but it is part of bigger things that surround us and we don’t pay attention to. I feel that I am sleep however I am still awake!
When my awareness start to surface again, and I started to feel my body parts again, I feel that all the noises and voices inside my head are quite. It is like a city in the middle of the night while everyone is sleeping and its streets are empty. As if all these noises went down or discharged into earth and left my body!
Surrender to gravity makes me feels as if my body became part of the earth and the only living part of me is my mind!
Everyone in the world agrees that we are different, brothers raised in the same family and under the same roof are different, twin that grow up on the same time in the same womb are different. Two tress are different even if they are coming from the same fruit’s seeds.
With my new yoga experience I learned that there are even differences in the same body! For example, my left leg is different than the right one, my right shoulder is different than the left one! How much I can do with my right arm is different than the left one! But with all these differences they shape one body that live in peace, they work together in harmony to help doing everything I ask. I never saw my left foot refuse to work with my right one because it has different size or less flexibility. I never felt that my right eyes asking my left one to leave my body because is less stronger. On the opposite, if my left eye is less stronger, my right one will do more effort to cover this gap. When my left leg get tired my body lean to my stronger right leg to give more support. They work as a whole to make me what I am now.
I wonder why people in our society don’t look into themselves and learn from their bodies that being different is not something bad. It is part of the beauty of our life and with our differences we fill the gaps between each others. We can live in peace and harmony, we can support each other in one society even if we are different exactly like my left leg support the different right leg in the same body!
Today I discovered that I am completely prisoner of the time!
Today I went to my Yoga class a little bit earlier and before the class started I noticed that I am not wearing my Fitbit watch. For a moment I had a panic attack but then I remembered that I connected to my PC at work to be recharged and I forgot to take it back again. I told myself, tomorrow I will get it, that’s not an issue.
I started to prepare my yoga mat, and I sat on my cushion waiting for the class to start, unconsciously after few moments I looked at my arm to see the time, but the watch was not there. I felt irritated because I felt that I don’t know what’s the time now! How long I have to wait until the class to start?! I looked around to see if there is a clock but nothing was there, just empty walls. I said to myself; close your eyes Rami and try to clear your head from the daily thoughts. But this idea of losing the track of time kept coming back again. I had a discomfort feelings, I am losing the track of the time! I am getting lost!!
The class started, I tried to focus more on the instructions but from time to time, something jump in my head, asking what’s the time now?! I had to fight this feelings couple of times until I won. I completely let the time go and I lost the track of time. The only thing that I was focusing on my breathes and how to put my self in the posture.
I finished the class, and I don’t know what is the time now, my head is clear, I don’t care if it is late or it is early. I arrived at home and once I entered my living room I noticed the time and I said to myself. It felt like if I was away for a very long time!
We are prisoner of the time (at least me), sometimes we lose the joy of a moment because we are afraid that it will end soon. We keep looking into our watches/mobiles or clocks to know our location in time. We lost the sense of time because we keep tracking of it, we are afraid to be left alone without knowing the time because we are afraid to be by ourselves so we don’t face ourselves for a longer period.
What I learned today is to set myself free from my time’s prison, to enjoy the moment and face myself without a fear.
When I started Yoga exercises five years ago, I wanted to bring balance to my life because I know that yoga is all about balance. Gym and weight lifting is not something for me. I feel that I have more connection with yoga. Since I start practicing I understood my body more and I started to listen to it more.
Now, I am having different experience guided by a teacher. I started to see Yoga in different dimension I didn’t see it before. Yoga is about balance but also about to do what your body allow you do in the moment and slowly let it expand naturally and with a flow. It feels natural because it connects your with your body rhythm through your breath. It sync your movement with your natural body rhythm to bring you to a next level of harmony.
I will keep exploring more about my new Yoga experience and I am looking forward to see where this time it is going to take me.